aussieaussieaussieaussie. ;D

wheeeee, i am in austalia,
the flight was meeean fun, i got the window seat emily got the middle and sat beside a random dude, i forgot his name but he lives in sydney and he was 16 or around about there, nice felo.
anywho, on the plane they have these new entertainment thingy's THEY ARE TOUCH SCREEN and you can choose from like 50 or more movies, about 40 television shows, like little britain, the simpsons, family guy, bro town, the big bang theory and so on, also we could listen to sooooooo many music albums,        
or several radio stations, we could also play video games cause there was a wee remote thing that had almost like a play station controller on it. aaaand we gooooot real yum food and this strawberry ice cream that was woooow so yum.
i watched juno, some of coraline, loooots of little britain, cooool video games, tones and tones of albums and also listened to my ipod for a wee bit.
before i knew it,  the wee man on speaker is like "hey we in sydney now piss off." or something like that xD keheheh.
when we got to sydney we went to my step aunties house where my step dads entire family was playing cricket on the field next to the house, we had a few beers and some dinner then went back to where we were staying (family friends house)

the only thing thats a bummer at the moment is that it is raining ):
buuuut it's not at all cold which is awesome.

going shopping today, going ti be insane ><
teeehehehe.
it's 7.55am in aus at the moment, feels like 9.55 to me, but everybody else in the house is sound asleeep (:

i loooooooove yoooou. <33

It's nooow H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S-! FTW

it's the holidays ! yaaaay.

it doesn't feel like the holidays yet, kinda just like a rather long weekend ^^

oh well, i am certainly enjoying, not having to see my lovely teachers and not having to deal with silly homework and friend drama, i can just relax and eat :L

if we had decent food in the house i would be eating :P

AND,
ohmygoodness, i just got my paramore ticket. -dances!-

and i also have my cobra starship ticket. -dances more!-

they will be amazing shows, honestly i'm more looking forward to see paramore , than cobra starship, i mean they are both awesome, but paramore are just a tiny bit more awesome (:

me and todd will have fun at cobra starship regardless if it's good or not, me and judie will also have fun at paramore regardless if it is good or not, so yes.

AND, my mother and step dad are away untill sunday so that means me and my sister are home alone for the weekend. FTW.
yes, i am in a really, wonderfully, happy mood :))
don't ruin it, please. ><

tomorrow is the last day of school !!

*pinch and a punch for the first day of the month!*

This year is almost over !

we are now in december ohmygaawsh, year ten has gone very quick which sucks because it is sucja cruisy year. i have bunked soooo many times and i still passed all my exams, soooo easy ! i thought at my school they would be reeally grumpy about people bunking, well actually, i haven't been caught yet so i wouldn't know (:

hahha, fingers crossed that i never will.

christmas is soon and that means i can finally go to invercargill to the farm and see all my family.

it is the best time in the entire year, like the only thing i look forward to ! I love my family soo much and at the moment with all this friend drama i will be glad to escape for awhile  >_<

i love having fun with my family.

one, two, threee. ^-^

oh-nuuu!!

i think there is something seriously wrong with me !

why? because what am i listening to at this very moment?  3 by birtany spears. ohhhmyyygooosh, fml.

AND before i was listening to LADY GAGA'S song bad romance. :/ i have never hated someone as much as i honestly hate lady gaga and i very muchly dislike britany spears, she is an attention-seeking-bum. RAWR. i'm not  going to listen to this crap anymore, it is an excuss for music. Britney Spears video clip is just hair flicking and body rolling sexual try-hardness. Where as bands like black veil brides, escape the fat, a day to remember, bring me the horizon, rede jumpsuit apparatus, lovehatehero, blessthefall, alesana, avenged sevenfold, behind crimson eyes, bullet for my valentine, the devil wears prada, hollywood undead, drop dead gorgeous, my chemical romance, never shout never, owl city, paramore, the perfect measure, there for tomorrow, tokio hotel and so on are soooo amazingly-wonderfully-awesome.

wooooowzers ! o.o

today, was wow, amazing.

well school was boooring, cause we went to the riccarton racecourse and we did a driving stupid-homo-thingy. -.-

THEN i went to GFY, woooow. it made my day. ^^
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. amazing

maths class atm.

woooooow.
ILOVEMRADAMS

WTF ?! can you like stop changing !!

hey, you people, that keep changing every five seconds.
how about you be true to yourself and be true to others rather than changing everytime
you are around a different group of people, around emo's you act emo, around scene kids you act scene and so on, why don't you just be yourself all the time?
yes? sweet.
>:|

sa-weeet, I'm fifteen ((:

lul, i thought that photo was cute, now that it is enlarged, not-so-cute.

soooo, today is the 22nd of November 2009,,

which means it's my birthday, YAAAYS ,
i am finally fifteen, and that means i can finally get my drivers licence !

FTW, yeah so, now i am bored and i'm gonnaaah ramble now, why?
cause i'm fifteen, bitch. (:

teeeeheee, okay that was mean. yeah, nah, i dunno, nothin.

i'm going to make a fool outta myself soon.

kthnxbi.

EPICfail.

Grace's Math exam results.
don't laugh;

number 1/10

graphs 0/10

probability 1/10

geometry 1/10

trigenometry 4/10

TOTAL:

7/50

oh i am sooo sooo cab.

woooo, cab maths next year !  o.O

My mind is blank.

i lol'd at the title for the fact that most people think my mind is always blank  ><
lul. anywho, mai mind is blank.
whys? because stupid stupid exams. !
i am most deffo going to fail maths.
ohwell i don't want to be a math teacher so i am all good (:
ehehe. i don't think i will fail english or social studies.
i maaaaay fail science at least i will pass some of my exams.
yay FTW

dayumyooohsuck.

you suck, seriously, i am not five, i am not stupid.

i can make my own decisions, i do not need you controlling my life.

so please just let me have even a tiny bit of freedom

cause at the moment you are ruining all my relationships and i cannot handle it anymore.

you don't understand how much i care about people.

so please , just leave me alone to live my own,

god, damn already screwed up life.

kthnxbi.

Rawr ! Exams Fail. ;O !

School at the moment is just ALWAYS about stupid pointless year ten homo exams.
it's not even ncea or anything so damn, pathetic.
soooo many teachers saying how "important" it is and how it's our "future" I am fourteen I seriously couldn't care less right now.

It doesn't help when home life is average as.

Well, yeah. That sucks.

Rawr.

Why must people who are cool, have soo much bad stuff happen to them,

 it's pointless and really not fair.

It irritates me how people who are mean and evil, good things happen to them and the people who are so nice and amazing have horrible, seriously unfair things happen to them. :/

R.I.P Tylar, Ethan and Jesse

I am sorry that you had to go, so young and so unaware.

Don't drink, drive then race around invercargill, seriously.

<33

( Tylar: Bottom. of the picture )

ineedtotalktoyouaboutsomethingserious.

yeah, well guess what?
i'm pregnant.

Do i even belong here?

it seems to only feel like i am on a very long vacation, it doesn't feel like home and i don't think it ever will.
this is stupid.
i wanna go home, where i do belong.

:| DUN EVEN TALK TO ME.

whaaaaat ? !

you weren't meant to care !
you weren't meant to mind !
you shouldn't care !
and you shouldn't mind !
don't, just don't !

you make me grumpy RAWR.

<33

Find a guy;

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

.. wait for the boy who kisses your forehead.

who wants to show you off to the world.
who holds your hand in front of his friends.

who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.

The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

(Y)

ooo, well yesturday was just horrible. :/
today was just to be honest wonderfully amazing, eeeehehehee ><>

*meows*

Goooodness me !

Today was a rather depressing day.
everybody was either depressed or attacking there friends or accidentally kissing people of the same sex.

AWMG ;o !

suh much drama went down I don't even know what was happening half the time. :/
i don't understand why everyone can just be nice to everyone.

i know people have bad days everyone has bad days, but that doesn't mean that you have the right to make people feel sad :(

daaaamn, cat fights.

♥♥♥

I am falling for you,
I cannot explain, why
I only just met you
and yet I feel like
I have known you forever.

om, watcha say..

lalalalala, life is erm. i guess different at the moment.
The only thing truly good about it is my amazing friends and i honestly think i take them all for granted. Sometimes it may seem like I do not care at all, but deep down i do, trust me. it's just at times things are just too hard to cope with and it seems easier to block everybody out, which is what i tend to do. I don't know if that means there is something seriously wrong with me or not. but it's nice to know that I will always have amazing people looking out for me and always being there for me and for that i thank-you.

lately, i have been thinking lots, deep and so on about random as meaningful stuff, life, friends, boys and what not.
i hate how i cannot seem to figure out some people, how people say one thing one day then fully change it the very next day. blah people are just average, i dont see why people dont care and look-out you eachother; we all make mistakes and we all have issues, feelings and shit.
people suck atm.

i will misses yoooou.

judie's leaving, she will have fun.
but i will misses her oh-so-much *sad face*
two weeks without mai wem0 in mai pocket xD

bumbumbumbumbum. i LOVES mai juuudie. {{:
*shnuggles*
sgvfdvbhnbjktnfujkensdgklvtnjkibvhjodrkhcgfc

lulz bitch.

In french on the computers.
listening to by your side by tokio hotel i love it muchly xD
♥

grrrrr, stupid brain.

asdfghjkl qwertyuiop zxcvbnm,
okay, I'm meant to be doing my 3 to 4minute speech on "how i have a tale to tell about southland " woo, not.

My brain cannot work at all it basically automatically turns off from Friday morning till Monday morning which leaves the weekends to not be able to use my brain at all what-so-ever. Which is kind of irritating as every time I start to write my speech I get distracted for like 20minutes, probably like what is happening now, I'm meant to be writing my speech but inside I'm fiddling around in the Internet. meh. bum. Oh well hopefully it wont matter too much if I fail year ten english. rofl. gay as.


>:

goodness me. :|

goodness gracious me, quite frankly girls are bitches.
always seem to think that they are much better than anyone else.
certain people need to get a life.
rather than sitting round listening to gossip.
lifes too short to get on peoples bad sides.
guys are far cooler, most of the time..

R.I.P Adam Goldstein
.x

wheeeeee!!

omygoooodness!
snow caving! mountain climbing! rain! friends! colourfulness! pictures! cute beanies! sun! snow! sleeeeeping bags! foood! ENERGY DRINKS! lollies! dried apricots! constance! judie! tayler! ashlee! kate! lauri! babes! custard! yellow snow! new nicknames! hot dogs! no sleep! shnuggling! no computers! no cellphones! no music! wrestling matches awn couches! chips! odd short shorts that no living boy should wear! animal noises! paint! getting lost! bush bashing! slippery snow! ice! snow balls! making a slide out of snow!
hehehe. ah, camp was amazing!!

how dumb are you?

really, how stupid can you be?
Sir, this is what you have done wrong.
one, given us computers to learn on.
two, give us headphones we can do our "personal learning" with.
and three, not blocking youtube or blogger on the school computers.
seriously.
that's silly. :P

stupid bums.

tbqh, I'm sick of stupid people thinking they are are super hot and then judging people without even saying one single word to the person they are judging, you are seriously immature. get a life.

damnfuckshit.

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY, BEFORE THINKING STUPID SHIT, GRRRR. SERIOUSLY GET OVER IT AND GIVE ME MY DAMN PHONE BACK?!!!

damn, parents.

oh.bollocks.

Wow, it's over, all of it. There is no going back now,

it's never going to be the same. We will never be "us" again.

I didn't think it would end, at least not like this...

What have I done? have I been the one who fucked everything up?

was it actually my fault?

I can't understand why I feel like this,

I knew I'd be sad but just not this, damn upset.

damn.

they way I feel when I'm with you.

you make me feel new.
you make me feel amazing.
you make me feel special.
you make me feel wanted.
you make me feel loved.

you make me feel happy.
you make me feel fuzzy.
you make me feel good.
you make me feel alive.
you make me feel safe.

you make me feel joyful.
you make me feel cool.
you make me feel wonderful.
you make me feel lovely.
you make me feel beautiful.

you make me feel like I can be , me.

youwereatmyhousewoooow.

At first, I was confused, very confused then those beautiful eyes, took me away.
Damn those eyes, why did they have to be so beautiful.

They make everything so much harder.
bumbumbumbum.

rebellious.

i took one when it said "please take two"

fuckinglol.

Okays, so at school today, connie, jeremy, ashlee, judie, levi and I all went to a "creative writing" thingy, basically so we didn't have to listen to our teacher.
anywho, the lady taking us is er.. well... interesting... hmm let's just say she is "different" I didn't at all undrerstand what on earth she was saying.

I'm pretty sure almost everyone in our "creative writing" group thingy is hard out emo, at the end peoples read there poems and stories out and most then were about death or people dying.

Next time everyone (except jeremia and judie) are going to write about lollipops, rainbows, colourful thingy's and what-not. hehe, should be really lovely.

oh. mehh.

At school, bored out of my mind.
there is nothing to do, they practically blocked any other decent website.
which is awful.

At the moment there is so much damn drama at school, at home and what-not, it's really annoying, not long ago I was so happy with life and family and friends, then all of a sudden none of it seems right anymore.

bum.

no more holidays.

Today, the first day back at school.
Boy-oh-boy did that suck, it's almost like alot of people have changed. Some for the better some for the worst, ohwell I still have the same amazing friends which is wonderfully amazing. i do love them to pieces though, dam kids.

misses you.

Jesse William Langeveld- nineteen.

Ethan James Peek- sixteen.

Tylar James Parry- sixteen.

you boy's will be missed so much.

you will always be in our hearts.

never forgetting all the good times.

i hope you boys are safe and happy up there.

rest in peace. ♥

there's no place like home.

invercargill, is a whole i guess, but i love it. It's amazing. iI get to see my family and friends. i love them oh so much. it makes me happy. >.<

holidays ♥

ah, holidays are so amazing.

like everyday I have been busy doing something, which is wonderful. I get to see more of my friends. I like my friendsm, they amaze me (:

The other day i stayed at Tayler's, it was entertaining. Last night I stayed at Connie's. I watched movies with Toddface the other day that was also fun. I'm happy I got to see Courtney, Holly, Kara-mae, Sarah and the other Invercargill netball girls when they were in Christchurch. ♥

I'm excited about going tdown to Invercargill on monday to see more of my other friends, hopefully the weathers okay. x

Rest In Peace. <33

I cannot actually believe that Michael Jackson is dead, he was weird looking and weird sounding and he did some weird things but, tbh he will always be remembered as a legend. I feel horrible for his children they will never know how amazing there father was. I don't like people who say he was a "pedo" he was NEVER found guilty of child fiddling or whatever, his father pushed and pushed him untill Michael went over the edge and turned white. Which made people call him a weirdo, which he isn't! The only thing thats starting to annoy me is the fact that every single channel has Michael Jackson stuff all over it, every radio station keeps playing his songs and everybody is doing tributes at school which is only going to "rape" the songs which are amazing. Michael will be known as a legened and will never be replaced. R.I.P (L)

ugh schooooool.

errlack, i'm at school...
it's silly... retarded and homo
wooo xD
i'm hungry's omnomnom

winter..

burrr it's very chilly!

don't get me wrong i love winter but this year it is really uber cold, considering i grew up in like the coldest place in new Zealand I should be tough, but i guess after a year and a half of living in Christchurch I have now gotten used to the weather and the way people in Christchurch don't roll there "r's".

It's weird that they don't roll there "r's" they sound like all posh and what-not, dirty has a R in it. jeeeez! it's funny cause if someone came dwn to invercargill talking like that they would get called posh or whatever, but when i come up to Christchurch rolling my "r's" they call me a country bum and so on. and that i marry my cousins or something. Invercargill isn't that much of a hole.

uh-oh I'm rambling ah, right, i was talking about the weather, yeah it's cold. ;D

longtimenochat.

ohaaaai, i haven't been on this in yonks! o.o
life is average at the moment but it's so much better then it was about a week ago :3
goodness gracious me schoool gives us LOOOTS of silly homework!

asdfghjkl; most of it is just pointless and the stuff that isn't pointless is just tooo hard for my brain to function ;D

ohwell, i'm uuuber happy cause next year i miight be going to burnside, which is awesome because at mai school all we do is work aaaand say "yes mam, no mam, yes sir, no sir."
tbh, it irritates mee. >:(

nevermind at leats i haz yum bum friends that aren't wee goody good's peoples ><
EHEH ^-^

I'm off now (: xo

then and now.

Tbh; 2days ago i was the happiest person alive... that has seriously changed and yeah it sucks, but there is nothing much I can even do. blegh -.-

I use to think love was everything... and that love is all you need, yeah it's cheesy, but i thought it was true.

But, love ISN'T everything, there are more important things in life to worry about. I have friends that will last a lifetime and i care about them deeply.

What I'm trying to say is, i still care about you dearly and you'll always be in my heart, but
I'm a person and I'm not a push over so please don't try to use me cause I deserve better than that.

xxxiloveyou.

asdfghjkl;

I dunno what is wrong with me?! why do I have to screw up everything!?
it's just hopeless. Everyone I touch seems to turn away from me, everything I say turns out coming back to me in the worst way possible. Why the fuck must I ruin everything that is good in my life. why!?!

There's no words to explain the regret i feel for not going to see you, I know I can't help it but I wish I could because every second of everyday I think about being with you and now I guess I have fucked it up.

This all comes back to mum going overseas and me not being allowed to go anywhere therefore resulting in my heart falling to stupid little pieces. I dunno how I'm going to piece them back together. This sucks, big time.

ughbleherrlack.

I wish things were like being back in year seven when nothing was a problem.

ithinkiamgoinginsane.

I am so close to going insane it's a huge worry... nothing seems to be going right. i have like 3 reasons for this. one, because mother dearest has gone to some Island for 2 weeks and left myself and my sister home alone with my grandparents . Reason two, since being young little year nines everybody has seriously changed and it is really quite horrible, people are judging other people without even knowing them. thirrrrd reason is that people at my school in christchurch are mean, they put people down to make themselves feel better, they stab people in the back and they are pretty much two-faced bitches. Although there are some coool cats that are just wonderfully amazing and always there, thankyou, Judie, Constance, Jonny, Tayler, Alex, Ashlee, Jono, Josh, Sam, Tom, Levi, Ollie, Rory, Jamie and not to mention everyone in invercargill who i love soo much, Lara, Courtney, Jess, Megz, Bella, Lana, Kim, Gemma, Maddy, Sarah, Johny, Tim, Kane, Jamie Sunshine , Hayden, Myles, Paull, Marc, Kelsey, Sally, Daniel, Kara - mae, Justin, Becky, Shanon, Geremy, Tony, Jayd, Dion, Jayden, jack and everybody else i love you guys to bits. xx

Just lately

lately... me, myself and I have been very very lost and tbh it suucks, I want to be full again, I feel horrible and empty all the time and I know that it'll eventually pass, but at the moment all I can think about is you. I hate it, its eating me up inside and I can't do anything and can't stop the way I feel no matter how much I want to, I hurt you I know that and I hope you trust me and care about me because i know I do. We've been through so much together and I know we will be good friends. No matter what happens or what is said there will always be a place in my heart for you love. xx

lifeconfusesme

life is confusing, people say one thing but mean the other :S

You make me happy

You have been there for me when no else was. You have helped me through everthing and i know you probably get annoyed half the time, but i just want you to know how much i appreciate it. When i feel down you are always there to make me feel better and when people pressure me to do stuff, you are always there to back me up. I'm thankful i have such a good friend like you. I'm always here for you love... ♥

I'm sick of people being bitches.

　　　　　　　　　　Dearest

　　　　anyone who hates me and calls me a slut behind my back

　can you not be a twat


　　　　and just get some balls and say whatever you have to say

　　 　　　　　　to my face... If that is too hard

　　　just please be a darl and Fuck off.


　　　　　Thankyou.

Hmm -.-

tbh, whoever made this up is amazing...
Im a slut because i wear shorts, .. Im anorexic because im too thin for you, .. Im a liar because i don’t tell you anything, .. Im a whore because i hang out with boys, .. Im weird because i don’t act the way you do, .. Im stupid because im sometimes wrong, .. Im fake because most of the time im happy, .. Im done being labelled..Fuck You!
can everyone, just grow up and spot making everything a drama.