then and now.

Tbh; 2days ago i was the happiest person alive... that has seriously changed and yeah it sucks, but there is nothing much I can even do. blegh -.-

I use to think love was everything... and that love is all you need, yeah it's cheesy, but i thought it was true.

But, love ISN'T everything, there are more important things in life to worry about. I have friends that will last a lifetime and i care about them deeply.

What I'm trying to say is, i still care about you dearly and you'll always be in my heart, but
I'm a person and I'm not a push over so please don't try to use me cause I deserve better than that.

xxxiloveyou.

asdfghjkl;

I dunno what is wrong with me?! why do I have to screw up everything!?
it's just hopeless. Everyone I touch seems to turn away from me, everything I say turns out coming back to me in the worst way possible. Why the fuck must I ruin everything that is good in my life. why!?!

There's no words to explain the regret i feel for not going to see you, I know I can't help it but I wish I could because every second of everyday I think about being with you and now I guess I have fucked it up.

This all comes back to mum going overseas and me not being allowed to go anywhere therefore resulting in my heart falling to stupid little pieces. I dunno how I'm going to piece them back together. This sucks, big time.

ughbleherrlack.

I wish things were like being back in year seven when nothing was a problem.

ithinkiamgoinginsane.

I am so close to going insane it's a huge worry... nothing seems to be going right. i have like 3 reasons for this. one, because mother dearest has gone to some Island for 2 weeks and left myself and my sister home alone with my grandparents . Reason two, since being young little year nines everybody has seriously changed and it is really quite horrible, people are judging other people without even knowing them. thirrrrd reason is that people at my school in christchurch are mean, they put people down to make themselves feel better, they stab people in the back and they are pretty much two-faced bitches. Although there are some coool cats that are just wonderfully amazing and always there, thankyou, Judie, Constance, Jonny, Tayler, Alex, Ashlee, Jono, Josh, Sam, Tom, Levi, Ollie, Rory, Jamie and not to mention everyone in invercargill who i love soo much, Lara, Courtney, Jess, Megz, Bella, Lana, Kim, Gemma, Maddy, Sarah, Johny, Tim, Kane, Jamie Sunshine , Hayden, Myles, Paull, Marc, Kelsey, Sally, Daniel, Kara - mae, Justin, Becky, Shanon, Geremy, Tony, Jayd, Dion, Jayden, jack and everybody else i love you guys to bits. xx

Just lately

lately... me, myself and I have been very very lost and tbh it suucks, I want to be full again, I feel horrible and empty all the time and I know that it'll eventually pass, but at the moment all I can think about is you. I hate it, its eating me up inside and I can't do anything and can't stop the way I feel no matter how much I want to, I hurt you I know that and I hope you trust me and care about me because i know I do. We've been through so much together and I know we will be good friends. No matter what happens or what is said there will always be a place in my heart for you love. xx

lifeconfusesme

life is confusing, people say one thing but mean the other :S

You make me happy

You have been there for me when no else was. You have helped me through everthing and i know you probably get annoyed half the time, but i just want you to know how much i appreciate it. When i feel down you are always there to make me feel better and when people pressure me to do stuff, you are always there to back me up. I'm thankful i have such a good friend like you. I'm always here for you love... ♥

I'm sick of people being bitches.

　　　　　　　　　　Dearest

　　　　anyone who hates me and calls me a slut behind my back

　can you not be a twat


　　　　and just get some balls and say whatever you have to say

　　 　　　　　　to my face... If that is too hard

　　　just please be a darl and Fuck off.


　　　　　Thankyou.